scared of girls

i’m afraid of girls.

look. smile. hello. conversation. hooked. chase. like. crush. love. sex. sex. sex. sex. sex. boredom. dumped.

warm bed. lying with. cold bed. lying without.

you want. you refuse. you pull me to you. you push me away.

tired.

rinse. repeat.

-placebo: scared of girls-

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  1. visit blog. read post. can identify. so true. agree. i like. post comment. leave blog. come back for more. 🙂

    • .gothikt.
    • October 19th, 2007

    ah! primrose, you have been missed *hugs*

    glad you like it. you are one of the few that has come and stayed for so long. i could always count on your participation. please, do come back for more *smiles*

    • Anaesthesia
    • October 22nd, 2007

    this same issue, i’ve questioned myself over, many many times.

    there are men whom i’m fond of enough to contemplate a future beyond mere dating, but then again, the thought of settling down with ONE scares me. what if there another better suited for life with me? what if i’ve yet to meet The One?

    some days i think i lack the capability to love, truly love, love just one person instead of the wide spectrum of polyamorous sentiments i feel for this cherished individual, and that much-loved familiar one, and that attractive kindred soul i’ve just newly met.

    heh. i’ve pretty much resigned that happily ever after with the prince charming of my dreams might just be that – an impossible fairytale not for me.

    for the moment, why not just sit back and enjoy the ride?

    • .gothikt.
    • October 23rd, 2007

    anaesthesia… love your nick…

    commitment is not one of my.. forte, unfortunately(fortunately?) yes, it seems we agree that settling for ONE, which could not be the ONLY ONE or RIGHT ONE for us is a scary thought indeed. and love is ever mysterious. i could never place a finger on this love emotion. doubt i’ve really love but i have like-adore-lust countless of times over.

    but if you’re happy where you’re at, doing what you do… then who are we, the people that’s looking in from the outside to say it’s wrong? go on, be joyous and happy until you find that ‘one’ or just settle for whom is there and then with you at that moment. sad as it sounds, i seem to find logic in that nowadays.

    well you have very interesting thoughts anaesthesia. we should meet up one day yes? your friendship, i would like. your mind, i could pick. *smiles*

    and i think you posted it in the wrong entry? this sounds more like a reply to ‘infidelity, me?’ *laughs*

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